October 13th, 2016

Seeking DC Vaccine–Overcome Anxiety

When the path gets rocky, seeing the obstacles as opportunities to trust God, instead of getting discouraged.

The message in Christian magazine Upper Room I read in ESL Bible class inspired me.

My departure to Bethesda is just two days away. My feelings are mixed with anxiety and excitement. As I was swaying left and right, the Holy Spirit spoke to me through the short essay.

” Many times in the Bible, circumstances got worse before God’s promises became reality: Joseph was imprisoned before becoming a leader; Abraham was asked to sacrifice his son before becoming the father of nations; Paul was blinded before becoming an apostle to the Gentiles.”

Yes. Like Jesus resurrection, God’s blessing comes at the very last moment when we hit the bottom, in an incredible astonishing way.

Then we read Remembering How to Laugh in George’s book Dusting for God’s Fingerprints. It was about the story of Abraham and his wife Sarah. Abraham was called to leave his hometown that had provided him a wealthy comfortable life, for the promised land, where he had no idea of. My thought ran to his emotional ups and downs from the time he was told to do so till he reached to the land, Canaan. He must have had both anxiety and excitement just like I feel now. Yet God was faithful and His promise was fulfilled.

Imagining the Abraham’s journey, I identified myself with him, and thought maybe God is really guiding me in this crazy adventure of the vaccine trial. God may be saying, “Follow me. I will bless you. Through you I will bless many people.”

Maybe I am too naive, and this is a shallow imagination, but I got encouraged again.

“For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” —Jeremiah 29:11

Reciting His words, I am going to Bethesda~!