“O Lord, how long will you forget me? Forever?”
“Why do you look the other way? Why do you ignore our suffering and oppression?!”
” “Wake up, O Lord! Why do you sleep?”
In Psalms of the Old Testament David, who united Israel around four thousand years ago, prayed so bluntly throwing out his crude feelings to God. He must have been desperate to survive from enemies. Yet It was refreshing for me to know that it’s OK to pray persistently and straightly like he did.
God is not a magic lamp or wand, which grants everything we ask, but He is the Creator, who has an incredible vast plan of our salvation knowing what is the best for us. I understand that He is not my servant but the Master so I need to pray that His Will be done instead of my will, like Jesus demonstrated in Gethsemane. I didn’t find the word “ Thy will be done” in Psalms but I can tell that David’prayed from the bottom of his heart or as if he were a lost child seeking his parents.
He committed big sins: stealing his faithful soldier’s wife and killed him sending him to the front line of a battle field. In spite of that, he was an apple of God’s eye.
“Have mercy on me, Oh God, because of your unfailing love.”
“Wash me clean from my guilt.”
“Our hope is in you alone.” “You are my rock and my fortress.”
“O Lord my God, I will give you thanks forever!”
” I love you Lord;; you are my strength. ”
He was totally 100% depending on God, clinging, trusting, and seeking Him more than anything, and that’s why God loved him so much.
I pray hard if I am desperate, but there are times when I doubt if He would listen to what I pray or afraid of asking too much, and then my prayer becomes passive. Yet He is my Father, who loves me more than anyone else. I don’t have to be afraid of asking miracles. I need not to forget His Grace and Marcy, remember His voice;His teachings, and the most importantly trust in Him no matter what. Psalm is now the model of my prayers.