I see white thin hairs growing on my bald head. That means I haven’t had chemo for a long time.
Yesterday morning, a nurse of the oncologist called and told me to hold off chemo including Afinitor, an oral daily drug, for another two weeks, which was not a surprise. Yet then, this month I had only one infusion and two weeks of Afinitor. It’s 25% of the full dosage. Cancer must be very happy.
A CT scan, which is rescheduled from 4/5 is coming next week, but I’m not sure if it’s on schedule or will be postponed again. I will find it out this Thursday when I see the oncologist.
Usually I take a CT every 3 months. As I think of the radiation amount I have exposed for the past 6 years, I always wish to expand the intervals. This time It has been 5 months, or possible longer. It is ironic that my wish came true after messing up chemo for a month. If I see the image after such a long time, I may see something horrible, as though I opened a refrigerator after I unplugged it a month. Scary!
Although the family medicine doctor, who called late Saturday night, said that the new 2.7cm nodule found in the latest X-ray was unlikely cancer, because the cough has been so persistent and nasty, it is difficult not to have a bad imagination.
As I’ve heard that there are Kaisers in Hawaii, too, I checked the locations. Unfortunately all of them are in Oahu island, but not 0n Maui island where we will stay.
” I don’t feel like I can make it.” As I said so, George answered, ” One day at a time. Don’t worry about ahead. You said you feel better than yesterday. ”
If I listen to him, I calm down.
Yes. If we face a huge overwhelming mountain in front of us, we need to focus on one day, or one step at a time.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.”–proverbs 3:5
I chew God’s Word.