George will be pretty much sure to lose the job at the church at the end of this March. We have been talking about the possibility since the church’s environment has changed more than a year ago. I have been wishing and praying for God’s intervention or opening the new door. The new door is still not clear yet, but leaving the church seems like His answer.
My first reaction was fear and anxiety. George and I are 60. I have had the endless battle against stage 4-breast cancer. George has Parkinson’s and paralyzed vocal cords. Who wants to hire such a man? What will we do with health insurance? I thought that people our age were getting ready for happy retirements with lots of savings, pensions, and looking forward to a cruise, or enjoying hobbies, but our boat seems like going down.
George has been saying to focus on Jesus; if your God is small, the problem becomes bigger, but with a big God the problem becomes smaller.
I have prayed, meditated, and listened to George and God. Then it became clear that George has been doing everything right in God’s eyes. It has been a tough year for him being pushed his gifts into a small box with a lid, and becoming invisible. Yet he has been patiently bearing and continually caring for people behind the scenes.
Then a following Bible verse spoke to me.
“Dear friends, don’t be surprise at the fiery trials you are going through, as if something strange were happening to you. Instead, be very glad—for these trials make you partners with Christ in his suffering, so that you will have the wonderful joy of seeing his glory when it is revealed to all the world. —
So if you are suffering in a manner that pleases God, keep on doing what is right, and trust your lives to the God who created you, for he will never fail you.” -1 Peter 4:13-19
George is sharing the suffering with Christ. In the suffering, we are still with God. This is a privilege! Then what do I need to be afraid of?
Matthew 5 The Beatitudes also encourages me:
“God blesses those who are poor and realize their need for him, for the Kingdom of Heaven is theirs.
God blesses those who mourn, for they will be comforted.
God blesses those who are humble, for they will inherit the whole earth.
God blesses those who hunger and thirst for justice, for they will be satisfied.
God blesses those who are merciful, for they will be shown mercy.
God blesses those whose hearts are pure, for they will see God….”
We are receiving blessings even if we may become poor or continually suffer. We’ll be ok, because God is with us!
I am looking forward to seeing what He is preparing next for us.