June 9th, 2014

Cancer Progressed Again

Today was the 7th Cycle of Herceptin and Perjeta.  Sitting in a chemo chair, I asked a nurse, who was opening my medical record in a computer, if the CT result I took last week had arrived already or not.   She said, “ Yes, “ so I asked her for a copy of the result.  A nurse is not allowed to explain a result, but she can certainly make a copy.

In the three-page result, I started reading the last page where the impression was written.

  1. Stable 9mm right lower lobe nodular opacity.
  2. Scarring and volume lose at the posterior left lung apex likely represents sequela of postradiation change.
  3. Interval increase in size of aortopulmonic lymph nodes.
  4. ….
  5. ….
  6. ….

 Cancer woke up!  At least 6 lymph nodes around the lungs have been growing.

The 5mm lesion in the liver was improved and besides the same possible abdominal varices just like the last finding in March, other organs and bones showed no remarkable changes.  –Those are all relief for me.

I will see the oncologist next Wednesday and hear more about the result.  Yet I am sure that my remission is over.  For the last two years, I was hoping that I was cancer-free, but instead, cancer was just sleeping and now it’s awake and active again, I guess.

I changed to the current regimen in January 2014 due to some side-effects of T-DM1.  I knew that although Perjeta was an excellent drug, without an additional chemo drug, a combination of two antibody drugs (Herceptin and Perjeta) works less than 20%, but  I chose the regimen because I wanted to rest my body from all side effects. Now I have to change the regimen again quickly.  I feel like I had a fall and have to climb up all over again a giant steep mountain, which I thought I saw the top almost.

May the Lord lead me to the right medicines and to the miracle again!