How quickly a week went by!
A week after I postponed the last infusion due to the low count of platelets, I went for a lab on Monday. This time the count of platelet was 91 while the minimum requirement was 75. I wanted over 100, but I decided to have an infusion.
My dose of T-DM1 has been reduced to 83% already, and the last two times I even extended the cycle from every three weeks to four weeks. If my calculation is right, this is less than 65%. In spite of that, I have had bruises and my eye has been bleeding since last Saturday. Probably my platelets are still going down.
After the infusion, I took a CT scan, which was important to see if the last suspicious findings were signs of a relapse of cancer or not. I am expecting to receive the results tomorrow.
The Christmas season is the busiest season and I don’t like all the pressures, but besides those regular pressures, this year I have been grieving for Pepper, working on some commitments, and depressed by recent world anti-Christ movements, and I didn’t have room to worry about the result of the CT so far. Yet if I get a bad result, surely my burden will multiply and I will be depressed more.
Then the Bible says,
“And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation. And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.” (Roman 5:13)
And also, it says,
“These trials make you partners with Christ in his suffering, so that you will have the wonderful joy of seeing his glory when it is revealed to all the world. So be happy when you are insulted for being a Christian,for then the glorious Spirit of God rests upon you.” (1 Peter 4:13)
The ultimate hope I cling to is nothing but the Heavenly Father.