The good news of my x-ray came in last Saturday.
I asked my oncologist, “ Can I cross out the doubt of cancer?”
She was vigilant and, instead of saying, “yes”, told me to keep an eye on my chest.
My battle will continue, but the result makes a big difference.
At night George and I got together with Christian friends.
Maggie read Psalm 30 as we shared our encouragements.
“I will praise you, Lord, for you have rescued me.
You refused to let my enemies triumph over me.
O Lord my God, I cried out to you for help, and you restored my health.
You brought me up from the grave, O Lord.
You kept me from falling into the pit of death.”
She said she thought about me as she read this Psalm.
Her husband, Bill said, “ Your faith has been growing since you got cancer, and it is so encouraging to watch it.”
How comforting and fortifying to hear from both of them!
When I first found the lump on my breast and was concerned about cancer, many fears rushed into my mind:
Am I going to lose a breast?
Am I going to lose hair?
Can’t I see my sick father in Japan any more?
It was a bottomless pit, and my fears became reality one after another. However, I could make it through such terrified moments. I was o.k. because there was a refuge – Jesus. It is because so many people have prayed for me.
Though I don’t know what is waiting tomorrow, as long as I am with Jesus, I think I will be ok.
I hear very often the statement that God will never give us more than we can bear. Yet, I don’t think this means we won’t get into a horrible situation, or the worst case.
Horrible things may happen. The worst thing may happen, yet His grace is bigger and He will never abandon us, walking with us all the way till the end. That’s His promise, and with this promise, we’ll be ok even if we walk in the shadow of death!
I must never forget this conviction.