The medical leave I have been taking for 12 months is coming to an end and I had to make a decision whether I was going back to work or not.
I have been a Japanese-English interpreter and a special education para-educator for public school for about 14 years. While so many teachers have been laid off in recent years because of budget cuts, I was blessed to keep the job, which provided great health insurance and long term medical leave.
Yet, I have to admit that I was struggling to find meaning in my work and was tempted to quit many times.
Once I quit, however, even if I become cancer-free, it will be very difficult to find a new job because of my age. Although my check was small, it would affect our family budget. This was not easy decision.
Since I got cancer, I have thought many times that maybe my days were numbered. If so, how should I live? ——–As I thought about it, I came to the conclusion that I wanted to serve for God’s kingdom, the community and the church, more effectively; helping people in need, finding a purpose and meaning in my life.
After numerous discussions with George and praying, I decided to retire from the school district.
As I went through old files for my work, however, I got sentimental. As I drive by a school and see students on the school grounds, I miss the good times and good memories.
No. Don’t question it. I already made a decision. I should not look back.
George advised me to write down all the reasons why I made the decision for the time I might regret it.
Getting cancer was unfortunate for me, but up till now, I have enjoyed my relationships with family, friends, and sisters and brothers at church more than ever, as well as new friendships with students in ESL Bible study and families in a cancer family support group. I want to pursue those relationships continually.
I want to take better care of George and support his work.
Trusting in God, I’m going to open the new door.